The Little Mommy Diaries.
Go home truck; you’re drunk! Lmfao!! Manitoulin drivers know how to have some fun!

Go home truck; you’re drunk! Lmfao!! Manitoulin drivers know how to have some fun!

I am simply amazed by every little thing you do! 
#angels #amazing #awesome #addicted #babynumber3 #beautiful #children #daughter #family #forever #ginger #gingie #gingerbreadgirl #ilovemybabies #life #love #lifeasamommy #oneofakind #princess #princessladybug #perfection #truelove #unconditionallove #yolo #xrayofmyheart #7monthsold

I am simply amazed by every little thing you do!
#angels #amazing #awesome #addicted #babynumber3 #beautiful #children #daughter #family #forever #ginger #gingie #gingerbreadgirl #ilovemybabies #life #love #lifeasamommy #oneofakind #princess #princessladybug #perfection #truelove #unconditionallove #yolo #xrayofmyheart #7monthsold

Welcome 2014

This past year has had it’s ups, it’s downs, and it’s in betweens. I learned how strong I really am, how happy I am, and who my real friends truly are. As I’m standing in the New Year, I want to promise myself that this year will be so much better, but I have made a habit of not making promises that I may not be able to keep. I’m not making any traditional New Year’s resolutions, I’m just making one goal for myself; my goal is to remember who Melaura is, and stay true to her.

Yes, I have found myself at times slipping away from who I truly am. At times it has brought me so much happiness, joy and an overwhelming sense of accomplishment. At other times it has brought me so much pain and heartbreak it took everything in me to see the light at the end of the darkened tunnel.

Welcoming 2014, is something I never thought I would do. In my craziest dream, maybe, but not as a reality. I should probably reflect on the chapters of my life that have been so influential.

2003-2006; probably the most bleak years I have overcome. The darkness began in January of 2000, but I was too young to truly comprehend the magnitude of the situation I had found myself in. When I was 13, my life was changing yet again, I was trying to find myself while living a very sheltered life. Can I blame my parents for wanting to protect me from this scary place we call home? Not at all. 2004 rolled around and suddenly none of my surroundings resembled my home, I was scared and felt very alone. Yet, all the while tried to remain strong for my family. This was honestly the first time I had ever lost myself, and I don’t think I ever found that innocence again, at least in myself. It was also the first of many years of experiments that would come to pass. 2004 was also the second time I fell in love, yet I couldn’t have the “bad boy” I had fallen for, so I settled for being his friend. 2005 was the best year I had in a very long time. I received 2 academic awards, and I actually went to school, unlike the previous year where I skipped my whole year away. I began to make “friends” on which my life wouldn’t be complete without. 2006 my world took a dark turn in which I wasn’t sure that my life would be spared for 2007. I honestly thought that in my sixteenth year my life would tragically end, and it almost did. Who knew that familial mistreatment, and a broken heart would lead to so much darkness? It was in 2006 when I fell in love for the third time. I didn’t think that life would get any better then that. The boy I fell for made me so happy, gave me reason to live, provided my soul with a hope that could not have been compared with anything else (at least at that time in my life). Sure my family was a bunch of morons that couldn’t understand me, but that boy got me, and loved me. When he put a gun to his head, that’s when I thought I had nothing to live for. We both lived on, he walked away scratch free from the heartbreak he caused me, I walked away scared for life and hospitalized for a short time. On December 8, 2006 my life took a sharp turn, and that was the beginning of my forever. I ran away, from the pain and heartache, from my past and straight into my future.

2007 was an amazing year! I started dating the boy I fell in love with in 2004, got pregnant with the child that would change my entire world, there was some shuffling about, but it was a great year. Although I was cheated on, emotionally abused, and in denial; it was a fantastic year!

In 2008 I met a girl, she wrapped me around her little finger the moment I laid eyes on her. From that moment on I knew my purpose in life, and I would do anything to ensure it. In a split second after meeting her, I knew what unconditional love was, because that is exactly what I felt. She changed me in a few short moments. That girl, is my daughter, my perfect angel that God sent me to save my life!! All through the abuse, I could still smile because of this little girl.

2009 was a very long confusing year for me. My daughter and I left her father because he became physically abusive, and I honestly didn’t know how to stand on my own two feet at that point. I was beyond hurt, yet I wanted to protect my angel from that pain. I was betrayed by friends, and the person I was supposed to spend the rest of my life with. 6 short months before we were going to be married as husband and wife, it was the end of us. It took me a little bit to see the light, I was living in autopilot. But for the second time, my daughter saved my life. Her absolute trust in me, her innocence, her unconditional happiness, her love; she saved me from a horrible darkness, for the second time! It was after I found my will, my happiness, that I met the true love of my life. It was him that took all the pieces my daughter had saved and put them back together. Suddenly I was whole again. I’ve told our story a million times, so I won’t repeat it ;). He took Mariah as his own flesh and blood, and couldn’t continue his life without us. It was also in 2009 when my first love, told me that he was in love with me, and if it hadn’t been for Tyler, him and I would be together.

2010 was an amazing year as well! Tyler and I grew closer together, and continued to realize the depths of our love for one another. We found out that we were going to have a son together, and even through my fear it was an amazing time in life.

2011 our son was born, he completed my life, and it is most likely the best year I have ever had, including my entire childhood! Everything was perfect! My MIL was a bit to handle, but I gained a SIL I cannot imagine my life without. I also lost some very dear people in my life. My Opoe passed on August 30, 2011 almost 15 years to the day of Opa. My BIL’s Mom passed a few days later, after a long time suffering. And my good friend died in a car accident at 21 years old! I was also betrayed by the one person who said she would always have my back. That person lied and twisted the truth into something so ugly and hurtful it was sickening. That’s when I packed my bags and walked away from her toxicity, and didn’t even try to take her guilt trip.

2012 was an interesting year. We were all happy, then we were miserable, then happy again. The beginning of the year life was surly perfect! Mid year everything went downhill fast, like cliff dropping fast, but then we found out I was pregnant with our youngest daughter. She saved our relationship, and that wasn’t an easy task. The remainder of the year was perfect! It was very fast and confusing.

2013, this past year, I’m so glad it’s over lol. It was a very tough year. We had to overcome such mountains, that honestly seemed hopeless at the time. But the highlights were HUGE! We gave birth to our little girl, our youngest! Our last baby! We were a completed family. All the obstacles from 2012 and 2013 figured themselves out as well!

So for 2014, I am aiming for the best 365 page book of all time! My goal is to remember who I am, and be more like me; which means optimism, and energy will be needed, very much so lol.

I wish everyone around me, friends and family alike, the very best for this new year!!

I don’t usually do this, but for my Dad and Mama, this is part of the baking I did tonight. An Apple Caramel cake, and 28 lemon cupcakes soon to have cream cheese icing added to them. Hopefully the kiddies enjoy them :)
#christmas #school #children #baking #cupcakes #cake #food #mmm

I don’t usually do this, but for my Dad and Mama, this is part of the baking I did tonight. An Apple Caramel cake, and 28 lemon cupcakes soon to have cream cheese icing added to them. Hopefully the kiddies enjoy them :)
#christmas #school #children #baking #cupcakes #cake #food #mmm

Mmm .. Crush thinks he found his next lunch!
-December 19th. 
#christmas #december #daynineteen #elf #elfontheshelf #family #fun

Mmm .. Crush thinks he found his next lunch!
-December 19th.
#christmas #december #daynineteen #elf #elfontheshelf #family #fun

Thank you Sparkle and Peppermint, I really enjoy seeing toilet paper on the tree. 
#christmas #december #dayeighteen #elf #elfontheshelf #family #fun

Thank you Sparkle and Peppermint, I really enjoy seeing toilet paper on the tree.
#christmas #december #dayeighteen #elf #elfontheshelf #family #fun

Mhmm. We ARE sleeping in your underwear bcuz you wouldn’t go to bed for your parents .. 
-December 17th 
#christmas #december #dayseventeen #elf #elfontheshelf

Mhmm. We ARE sleeping in your underwear bcuz you wouldn’t go to bed for your parents ..
-December 17th
#christmas #december #dayseventeen #elf #elfontheshelf

This better not stay on my mirror!! 
Santa 
says 
hi! 
<3 Peppermint and Sparkle xo
-December 16th. 
#christmas #december #daysixteen #elf #elfontheshelf #family #fun

This better not stay on my mirror!!
Santa
says
hi!
<3 Peppermint and Sparkle xo
-December 16th.
#christmas #december #daysixteen #elf #elfontheshelf #family #fun

Yeah, I really couldn&#8217;t give a flying &#8230; If my ears are swelling bcuz of the cold already .. It&#8217;s WINTER! And by the looks of it, it&#8217;s going to be a long COLD one too!
#december #cold #winter #ear #northbay #nofilter

Yeah, I really couldn’t give a flying … If my ears are swelling bcuz of the cold already .. It’s WINTER! And by the looks of it, it’s going to be a long COLD one too!
#december #cold #winter #ear #northbay #nofilter